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The Souls of Animals by Gary Kowalski. © 1991. Stillpoint Publishing. ISBN 0-913299-84-7.

“Do animals have souls?”

Kowalski provided examples, stories, and his insights and/or observations of animals in an attempt to discover if animals have souls.

Each chapter was assigned a question. Each chapter question was explored within that chapter. Some of the chapters addressed: death, affairs of the heart; ethics, love; play and self-awareness – in both humans and animals.

Throughout this book, Kowalski offered some interesting observations and also asked the reader thought-provoking questions.

Kowalski offered an exercise for the reader to try – to look into the eyes of another (human or animal) and take note of what you see. He then writes, “What you look upon is a living spirit.” (p. 91)

Do your beliefs include animals having souls? Not sure? Read this book and decide for yourself.

I recommend this book for everyone.

April 8, 2009

On April 20, 2009, our daughter – JoAnna, twenty years old – lost her battle with drugs and alcohol.

Those who know me know that I share my own personal experiences to teach. I also share my own experiences with others because I know that I am not the only person on this earth experiencing the joys, beauty, heartache and pain of human life. It is my way of saying, “You are not alone.”

And, unfortunately, my husband and I are not alone in losing a child during these times.

After receiving the news, I sobbed, and my knees went weak. I never realized how deep one could feel grief.

Then I became very quiet, shielded, and ‘listened’. JoAnna was with me. Now I know many of you are probably thinking that it was just wishful thinking on my part – and I would have probably agreed if I hadn’t spoken with many others over my lifetime that had crossed over…most of whom I had never physically known.

Death of a loved one is very hard. No one can take that pain from you. Many people told me that they just didn’t know what to say to someone who is grieving. And that is okay. It’s okay to say that you don’t know what to say – listening, hugging, and your presence say it all, and is so very much appreciated.

We have received an outpouring of support from all over, and we thank everyone for their kind words, support, hugs, assistance and love during this time.

Jan Toomer
April 27, 2009

Elissa Heyman has offered her visualization exercise – Guided Meditation to Access Intuition. Thank you Elissa!

www.elissaheyman.com

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We each have our favorite type of music – be it country, classical, Celtic, new age, head banging, rock, oldies, etc.

Did you ever stop to think about your type of music and why you like it?

Did you ever listen to your body’s response to the music you listen to?

Do your tastes change according to your moods?

There is one song I listen to occasionally on the 70’s rock station, “The Night The Lights Went Out in Georgia” (1972, written by Bobby Russell and sung by Vicki Lawrence).

The lyrics tell a story. The music talks to me also.

As this song begins, I get a strong tingling beginning at my ears and below my cheek bones. This sensation moves up to the top of my head, intensifying as it progresses upward. By the time the song is finishing, the tingling has increased to a strong prickling on the top of my head – very intense but not painful.

This is the only song (so far) that I have this type of reaction.

Not only do lyrics tell a story, but so does the music – and they often tell the same story.

Songs can be uplifting or depressing. They can agitate us; calm us; energize us, etc. They can enhance our mood or even change our mood – for better or worse.

Music talks to our bodies, our energy and our minds.

I’ve recently been listening to “Nocturne” (from the album “Secret Garden”). This piece is 3:14 minutes long and has only 24 words in it, but it talks to my soul – and my soul soars with the music.

If I close my eyes while listening to it, the music combined with my mind, create the most wonderful (to me!) imagery.

Have you ever been stuck on a song? It just keeps playing over and over in your mind– or you keep wanting to play it over and over? What is that songs’ energy communicating to you? Some people are drawn to songs that reflect their current frame of mind.

Listen to the words; then ignore the words and listen to the music. What story are they telling you? How does it relate to what you are currently feeling, experiencing or hoping for?

And what is your favorite song communicating to your body and mind?

Jan Toomer
April 8, 2009

(Continued)

Part Four
(Thursday Continued)
Session Five

Again, it appeared to finish quickly.

One design today created the visualization of fairy dust (now, I have never really seen fairy dust that I know of, but that’s what my mind came up with) – a sense of enchanting, mythical and playful.

My mind brought me from fairy dust, to an open field, followed by deep oceans and playing with dolphins – then back to land. I was then standing next to a pond, and by my left foot was a frog. I ‘heard’ someone gently tell me to see the frog, “Look at the frog. Remember the frog.” I had no idea what that meant.

Later that evening, I tried to connect (psychically) with a friend, and just about when the connection was made, I started coughing really hard. I ‘saw’ three beings standing between me and my friend, and was told, “No, not now. Concentrate on yourself – no reaching out yet.” And from far away, I heard my friend yell, “I am okay, Jan!” And then I sneezed.

I decided to try meditating. I hadn’t done that in over ten years, not because I didn’t want to – I couldn’t. Too much brain fog to try to get through and I couldn’t focus long enough to get into the meditative state.

I was easily able to enter the state now, and was asked to pull green. (Bring down green light into my body – this is where the frog came in before. Kermit the frog’s song about being green! My guides wanted me to pull in the green). The meditation was short, but awesome!

Friday

In the past, I would wake up each morning with a song for the day in my head. This song would play over and over all day long. I also had a tendency to count in my head when my mind wasn’t working on something. I used the counting to try to focus my thoughts.

I hadn’t had a song in my head, nor counted for two days. Today, after breakfast, I seem to be showing my creative side. I had combined a song WITH counting. I realized what was happening when I reached, “96 bottles of beer on the wall…” Ha!

Session Six

One design worked on pain, and for the first time in over ten years, the pain in my hips and legs was gone – in ten minutes or less!

After Session Six, Leesa and I were discussing Greece. It wasn’t until I came back to my hotel that I realized when I spoke of my trip to Greece, it was a clear memory. Let me say that again – it was a CLEAR memory! No struggling to grab and retrieve the memory – it wasn’t hazy – it was a pre-stroke clear memory! Yeah!

Session Seven

My husband had been doing the shopping (of any kind) for quite a while now. The fluorescent lights burned my eyes and skin; the people, noise, activity, etc. made my head hurt; I would have panic attacks, feel completely overwhelmed, and become really irritable. I would have asthma attacks from all the smells and stuff floating in the air; my nose and eyes would itch, burn and water. These symptoms would last for twenty-four hours or more following me going to a store – which usually meant the next day I was really grumpy, off-balanced feeling and groggy as well.

Really good feeling session this afternoon and it was time to put it to the test. I went on the hunt for a big store – and found one that had one-stop shopping; groceries and just about anything else.

I spent an hour walking every aisle, the length of the store, the garden center, and grocery store part – all while very hungry.

Not one headache (nor even a start of one). My eyes didn’t burn (though I wouldn’t know about my skin burning until a few hours later); no sensory overload, no panic attack, no irritability, no blood sugar crash; no allergy reactions (itchy eyes, nose), no asthma attack.

I bought some stuff to make a super salad – my celebratory dinner!

I went outside and called my husband and told him what I had just done. He was speechless at first, then very happy (and, I’m sure, relieved) for me.

I also realized that I was beginning to crave socializing, and a feeling of home calling me back.

The final test would be finished the next morning to see if I had any of the “hangover” feelings from the experience.

I went back to the hotel, made my salad and turned on the TV.

I finally put lights out at 10:30 pm. I was so exhilarated; I really didn’t want to sleep!

Part Five

Saturday

Session Eight

One design brought three memories from childhood – starting with the newest one back to the later one. The later one was when I was old enough to sit in a high chair.

Later that morning, I realized that memories which contained unresolved/unanswered questions were surfacing – again with no attached emotions.

They came up, one large bubble at a time. The bubble would stop so I could observe what was in it – and when I finished contemplating its contents, it continued its upward path, and popped. No stress, no emotions; just a leisurely process.

(No “hangover” from yesterday).

Session Nine

I knew I was feeling so much better, because I had troubles – I thought – on relaxing. (Leesa assured me that I could think away – the procedure works on the brain and my thinking and excitement wasn’t going to interfere with that). I was restless and excited to be going home the next day. I wanted everyone to know what I had experienced! And was curious to see if all of this would work once I was back in my ‘natural habitat’ – ha!

And, was looking forward to living my re-newed life!

Sunday

Session Ten

Went quickly – and my thoughts raced to returning home. I kept no personal notes for this day (though I provided some to Leesa and Dr. Haire).

I had met with Dr. Haire after my final session. He said that he was pleased with my progress and noted the changes on the paperwork the sessions provided – both with my feedback and the information from the computer as it monitored the changes.

I did tell Dr. Haire that words could not adequately describe the difference I felt from the time I entered The Heartsong Center to when I finished. And I meant it.

I didn’t want to talk long – not because he was a doctor (that fear was gone), but because I was so anxious to get my life re-started!

I also told Dr. Haire that I decided I have made myself their unofficial spokesperson! It really does work.

Home One Week

I have been home for well over a week. Dr. Haire and Leesa both said that the healing process would continue for about a month.

Unfortunately, I am busy with the hectic lifestyle and may have begun taking the changes for granted. I am still very much appreciating the changes, and am integrating them into my life effortlessly.

I go grocery shopping, and do other shopping, with no ill effects. I am no longer tired or worn out from being mentally over-stimulated (since the fog is no longer there).

I know some of you are asking “What about your abilities?”  Over the past ten years, I had to go up and out to get the information I needed. This also meant I had to fight past the fog, and fight my way back down again.

I no longer have to ‘go’ anywhere. The information comes smoothly to me – and I have tested this repeatedly.

As for the fluorescent lights, yes, they still burn my skin. (It looks, and feels, like a sun burn). I also noticed that my animal allergies didn’t dissipate – so have gone back to the homeopathic treatments my naturopathy had me on – which seem to be working well.

As for the Brain State Conditioning ™, I cannot say enough good stuff about it. It helped me, and continues to help me, so much. And the changes it made in me truly are beyond words (though I tried!).

Some people have questioned having this done. Some arguments have been that we all contain within us the ability to correct/change – for example – the effects of PTSD…especially if you are a metaphysician.

If I have a broken finger – I go get help. If I need stitches, I seek help. If my tire is flat, I get help.

I don’t feel I can fix everything, including some things within me. It does not mean I will ever stop trying…and I will continue to accept direction, assistance, help from others.

I begrudge no one for their beliefs. I, personally, will seek out assistance or help when I am stuck. In this case, I had asked for help for about eight years – and tried many things, including deep meditation, energy healing, etc. Nothing helped until the doctor spoke with me about BSC and the Heartsong Center, and I went.  It helped, and I am glad I did it.

Home Almost One Month

The differences continue to pleasantly, but ever so subtly, surprise me. Nothing has reverted or backslid. And the more I move forward, the more I realize how rough it had been; how much anxiety/tension my body/mind carried before doing B.S.C.;  how much of life I had been missing….and how much life, energy and literally freedom I now have.

In one word or less? Awesome!

If you want more information – you can contact Dr. Haire or Leesa Haire at The Heartsong Center in Silver City, NM (575-534-9748) – you can see their brochure -Heartsong Center Brochure. Or you can contact the parent facility in Scottsdale, AZ to find a facilitator close to you. The parent facility has a website you can visit – www.BrainStateTech.com (email Info@BrainStateTech.com) – or you can call them at 480-588-6840.

By: Jan Toomer

November and December 2008

I was speaking with my dear friend and her husband today. We were discussing a shift which began two days ago – and many are still feeling the effects of this shift.

Many are feeling out of kilt, and have expressed a general feeling of unwell, or are downright ill. Others have a feeling of doom, or feel anxiety about losing a loved one. Or fear of losing everything. These are some of the symptoms that have arisen during this newest shift.

Because of this shift, and because of the uncertain times we are all facing, I was requested to write an article about hope during these trying times.

Back in October of 2008, I wrote two articles (on my Google blog) about Mercury going Retrograde while we were in a growth spurt.

Clean Up On Aisle Two Please
http://reality-undefined.blogspot.com/2008/10/clean-up-on-aisle-two-please.html

More Clarity Please!
http://reality-undefined.blogspot.com/2008/10/more-clarity-please.html

Growth spurts are uncomfortable and sometimes painful (remember children teething!). When we go through growth spurts, we are working to shake off the heavier (denser) energy so we can accept the lighter energy.

You a smoker? Ever tried quitting? It’s very hard to break habits – and having lived in heavier energy for so long, and now trying to break free of it is not easy either – but it can be done.

Ever see a snake shed its skin? It doesn’t just fall off; the snake has to work to slough it off. But the snake does it. It’s part of the snake’s growth.

We are individually, and globally, in a growth spurt. We see the old breaking down all around us – and it has to so we can allow the new, lighter stuff to move in.

Think about this….Even if we ‘lose everything’ – we still have everything! And before you criticize me for this last statement – please think deeply and fully on it.

While going through a growth spurt – fear, stress, anxiety, and not wanting to ‘let go’ – will only make the transition more difficult and/or drawn out.

If you want to cry, then cry. If you want to scream, go find a place outside (preferably isolated) and let it rip. Get it all out in a constructive way. Do not hold on to fear or anxiety. Allow the old to transition into the lighter and brighter energy.

I do not have all of the answers – and not sure I would want to. But I can tell you that I know this is necessary for all of us – globally.

We each have a choice – just as we do for everything else. We can see these changes as a bane; something horrid; dread it; fear it, etc.

Or, we can accept it with grace and warmth. Embrace our ability to adapt, change and grow.

We are marvelous creatures! And, we have each decided to be on earth during this phenomenal change in energy, humans, and the earth. We chose this! No, not as a punishment. God is not punishing you – you are not punishing you – no one is punishing you.

We are here to make a difference – each and every one of us!  And I am choosing to embrace my ability to adapt, change and grow with grace.

And you?

Jan Toomer

April 11, 2009