Archive for May, 2009

I was speaking with a friend Tuesday – this was the first time I had spoken with her since the death of my daughter, JoAnna. I had just finished going through boxes of JoAnna’s belongings which she had stored at our house, so I was a bit tender from doing that.

During our conversation, my friend asked me a valid question which I will share some of here. (I am paraphrasing, as well as going into a more lengthy answer here.)

She asked about a metaphysical-oriented person (such as myself) and how the loss of a loved one (aka grief) hit us. In essence, because I can talk with those on the other side, and am a human, how did grief hit me?

I related to her about how JoAnna and I had been in contact up until the day before the wake her friends held for her (scheduled May 3rd -  13 days after her death) – and that I would cry every time I felt her presence near me or when she talked to me.

On May 1st, I sat down and told JoAnna that she needed to go back into the Light for a while – it was still too painful for me. I then told her that after I had time to heal, she was welcome to come back.

She gently pulled her energy from me.

On May 2nd, JoAnna popped back in. Smiling, she bowed to me, giggled and said, “Watch!”

In typical mischievous JoAnna-style, she put on a mini-theatrical production for me.

She showed the Light coming down; her friends from the other side appearing from within the Light.

A guardian Angel appeared beside JoAnna, and both – light-heartedly – walked towards the Light. JoAnna kept looking back at me, smiling.

She entered the Light – high-fiving her friends – and then turned back to me. The guardian Angel had moved beside JoAnna. Opened double doors appeared; the guardian Angel pulled one door closed and JoAnna began pulling her door closed.

As JoAnna’s door was almost closed, she swung it open a little wider, stuck out her hand and energetically waved; she bowed, and shut the door.

I laughed.

Her message was, “See? I’m giving you closure!”

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I have cried, and tears still spontaneously spring forth – even as I write this.

I am a physical being. I mourn the physical loss of my daughter, who was also my friend. I miss her physical presence.

Yes, metaphysicians grieve.

I do want each of you to know that even if you can’t hear or sense your deceased loved ones yet – they can, and do, hear you.

Your prayers for your loved ones are heard and appreciated by them – as is when you talk to them.

And please know that when you are going “Home”, they will be there to greet you.

In Love and Light, Jan.
May 27, 2009

I am going to offer up challenges, once month, for a few months. I ask your participation.

This month’s challenge is to experience shielding.  If you don’t know about shielding, you can listen to the podcast here – Shielding.

DON’T HUG A CACTUS

Some cacti have large needles; some have small, fine hair-like needles. Both can be a nuisance or painful.

Yet, we seem to hug cacti through out the day – metaphorically, not literally. We can pick up other’s energies; the pleasant energy usually doesn’t bother us…but, the negative energy is not so nice. And we pick both up throughout the day, whether we realize it or not.

So, here’s the challenge:

Tomorrow, when you go about your day, try to notice how you feel throughout the day. Note if any person or circumstance gets under your skin; if one does, how does it make your body feel? How about your energy level?

The next day, shield, and then go about your day (shielding as often through out the day as you feel is necessary).

Take note of what you experience. How does your body feel? Your energy level? Was there any difference?

Please come back here and comment on your experience. Let’s see what happens…. (there’s a new category on the right of the screen – labeled “Challenges”).

Jan

As if in trance, she watches
the pen in her hand
creating written beauty
on the page.

Words flow forth;
pen caresses paper
from her hand, yet
separate from her.

She wonders how
the magical dance is
done, since she has
no conscious control.

Hand and pen waltzes
to unknown music.
Thoughts and emotions
coming to life.

Animated without her
mind interacting.
How can this be?
Decidely an outside force.

As quickly as it began,
the magic stops.
Or had it?
She reads what is written.

It was unknown to
her how such grace
and beauty could
emerge from mere words.

She realized that
though the dance
had stopped – the magic
continues to live.

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Oftentimes, “I” would write things that I had no idea where they came from – as though the writings were directed by someone else. I wonder if I had done automatic writing without realizing it? (Not what I recommend.)

(FEB 97)

The blood red moon
foreboding against the
black velvet sky.
Unobserved by many.

Merkaba effortlessly
glides above – un-noticed -
third dimension dwellings.
Ignorance self-induced.

Training continues -
wonders never cease.
Previously known -
recently re-introduced.

A new beginning starts
before the old ends.
Too much knowledge
to be retained in present.

Going back to gather,
piece by piece -
slowly released back
into the consciousness.

When all remembered,
and honored -
the final journey -
we transcend.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
My awareness and abilities are beginning to re-grow.

(MAR97)

As we get closer to the New age and our transformation, we are all seeing big changes taking place.

For me, as I stated in a previous blog, I am trying to stay in a higher vibration, and I like the affects that I feel.

I am wondering about something, and I would REALLY appreciate some feedback from all of you that are on the path of enlightenment.

I have a sixteen year old grandson that is living with me. He came to me because he and his mother seem to clash, and he is always getting into trouble with her. My husband and I don’t seem to have any problems with him.

We think that he knows within if his actions are right or wrong. He is sixteen, and at times you have to remind him and even over ride him. However, he has been here since Feb and we haven’t had any blow ups.

He watches me listening to all kinds of “booga booga” DVD’s {as he calls it} and he tells me that he thinks it’s all a bunch of crap. However, my life and the way my needs are always met, is a witness of my belief, and he sees that.

My question to anyone that might take the time to offer input, is this, how do you encourage the kids to raise their vibration, when they haven’t been taught about spirit in their early years?

I am leaning towards an answer that says not to worry, they will be fine. I guess my question should be, is there anything that I should be doing?

Thanks for any  and all replies!

Liz

I’ve finally come to realize,
that it is my nature to question.

Not necessarily doubt all;
but to constantly seek for the new.

To limit myself – to accept nothing
new – goes against that which I am.

I’ve also realized that I may never
receive all the answers in this lifetime.

But for me, to quit asking and seeking,
means to quit living.

And for that -
I am not ready.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Jan Toomer
(AUG97)