by Jan Toomer
I am constantly working on self – and every so often, receive a wonderful breakthrough.
In a past article (Broken-hearted), I wrote about working on a heavy and deep-seated sadness within me, and how I found I was sad for humanity; but, there was still more, and I needed to find what it was.
I asked my guides to help me find out what this remaining heaviness and sadness was. What really intrigued me was that I wasn’t depressed – I could sense the sadness within, but it seemed very far away.
Long Story Short
I had received an email which contained the writer’s emotions – the past grief, current relief and hope for the future. I cried when I read it…and then it really hit.
I ended up sobbing; it wasn’t because of the email, but I wasn’t sure what caused it.
I suddenly ‘saw’ little bubbles – with people I had known, contained within those bubbles, and the bubbles were floating out of me.
Then came the epiphany – this had not been my sadness.
Apparently, since I was a small child (and perhaps carried forward from other lifetimes as well), anytime I (subconsciously or consciously) worked with someone who was grieving or in emotional distress, I took part of their sorrow away from them.
Where did it go after I took it from them? Into me.
I learned as a teen that a healer should never take another’s illness or injury into themselves. “Observe, not absorb” is what I teach in my classes when we work on healings or readings.
It never occurred to me that I was taking others sorrow, grief or anguish.
As I watched bubble after bubble leaving me, I became lighter and lighter feeling within.
Each bubble I released had been a soul fragment of another person.
Each bubble was cleansed and shielded. I asked the Source to bless, return and re-integrate the soul fragments to their rightful souls.
Soul fragmentation – also called soul loss – occurs throughout our lifetimes. We can lose pieces through fear, trauma, horror, accidents, worry, sorry, etc. – lifetime after lifetime.
Our fragments may be with others, or may be trapped in a particular time.
Remember the articles where I wrote that we have to heal our past?
Pardon Me… Your Past is Showing
Time to Draw the Line – Setting Personal Boundaries
The Next Phase, Part I, Responsibility
The Next Phase, Part II, Accountability
The Next Phase, Part III, Being Pro-Active
Attachments, Part I
Attachments, Part II
Our past includes soul fragments we have lost – and soul fragments we have taken.
I am now practicing asking the Source to heal others – and being very specific that their pain, sorrow, grief, etc. does not come into me.
And, I continue on working on self to heal my past in preparation for new discoveries in my future.
(There are many books out about soul fragmentation, soul loss, and soul retrieval).
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